Sometimes the bad days turn into bad weeks. Then the bad weeks slip into bad months. You wake up each morning dreading the day ahead of you, unsure of how to continue treading water when your legs feel like lead. People ask you what’s new and you do your best to muster an almost genuine smile and not launch into a laundry list of every negative thing that is taking up your head space. Instead you say, everything’s great! or some other blasé nonsense.
Sometimes you just don’t know what to do with it all. When you try to tackle the same problem in yet another new way and are met, yet again, with failure. You begin to feel insane. You begin to feel like things will never ever begin to look up and maybe this really truly is not figureoutable.
And then, like a ray of warm sunshine on a chilly winter day, the clarity hits you.
That, my friends, is what we call a breakthrough.
Breakthroughs come in many different forms. They come after you are beaten down into a puddle of unrecognizable mush bereft of motivation to continue. They come when you weren’t even aware that a particular problem or situation was in need of fixing. They come when you’ve pushed that particular problem all the way to the back of your mind, filed in the freak out about later folder. They come after many prayers, tears and sleepless nights. They come when you’ve just given up hope that they will ever arrive.
Breakthroughs come when they come, and how glorious they are when they do.
You can finally breathe a deep sigh of relief and know you have overcome it, this giant immense problem that has been draining you for so long. You can finally breathe and know that you have grown. Again, you have grown! You can finally breathe and feel another layer of strength added to your growing suit of internal armor.
My advice for how to survive the pain during the process?
Believe in yourself. Believe that you are better than you feel. Believe that you are capable. Believe in your greatness and your potential. Allow your friends and family to tell you how worthwhile and amazing you are. Believe them when they do. Believe in your journey and your story. Believe it is all contributing to who you are meant to be.
And keep going. Just keep going.
In the name of daily struggles and much needed breakthroughs.