On healing

I remember being twenty-five, newly sober, and feeling like the scum of the earth. Everything felt impossibly hard and overwhelming. I remember being scared, so scared, that I had messed everything up beyond the possibility of repair. Everything was a hurdle. I couldn’t figure out how I had gotten to where I was, why everything […]

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In 2019 I hope

There’s something so magical held within the promise of a new beginning. Fresh starts, blank slates. I love them. Pregnant with hope and with trepidation, all interwoven and impossible to separate. I cannot seem to hold one without the other. In December of 2016 I wrote this post and, in closing, wished for 2017 to change […]

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Anyways, Despite, and in the Name Of.

I watch people around me doing brave things, every single day. Women and men alike setting their junk aside to go out and own their destiny. I wish that they could see me cheering for them, these astoundingly brave people. I’m in their corner- believing in them, hoping for them, celebrating with them. Sometimes these […]

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In 2017 I Hope

In January, I wrote out my list of wishes for me and for you, and life gave me exactly what I needed to bring this list into fruition. This year taught me that in 2017… I hope that you look at your fears. I hope that you face them, squarely and wholly and as deeply as […]

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On Breaking Through

Sometimes the bad days turn into bad weeks. Then the bad weeks slip into bad months. You wake up each morning dreading the day ahead of you, unsure of how to continue treading water when your legs feel like lead. People ask you what’s new and you do your best to muster an almost genuine […]

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How To Survive Your Twenties

Sometimes, I really wonder just how I have made it this far. How have I conquered so many challenges and not spontaneously combusted in the process? It’s a miracle. Life is hard. Adult responsibilities are hard. Adult decisions are hard. Work is hard. Sometimes just existing is a feat of strength. Here’s what I have […]

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Keep It Simple

I think that success is a combination of determination, focus, hard work, and just a little bit of luck. I believe that the harder you work, the luckier you become. How? Well, hard work begets opportunity. The more you apply yourself and the more energy you pour into making your dreams come true, the more fortuitous […]

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Give Me Failure

Failure has taught me many things. Self-hate, for instance. Failure has taught me lots and lots about that. It has taught me how to be really great at tearing myself down and convincing myself that I will never succeed. It has taught me fear. Failure hurts. It cuts deep and it is difficult to recover […]

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Farewell, 2014

It’s New Year’s Eve! Can you believe it? While I am not a huge fan of resolutions, because they generally lose steam by the second week of January, I am a strong advocate of goal setting. I usually begrudge New Years, but this year I am making an effort to use this time to reflect, […]

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Authenticity and Just a Little Bit of Grace

Christmas in my household is small and quiet. This year, it was even smaller and quieter than usual, consisting of me, my mom, my step-dad and step-sister. My two step-brothers, who are mostly always around for this holiday, couldn’t make it down this year. I sat in our family living room, staring at the beautifully […]

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